I'm doing a little bit better. Yesterday I fasted all day and ate a 200 calorie frozen meal. Today I'm going to try and do the same thing, only the meal is 220 calories. Oh well. I should be good until later. I woke up at 4 for some reason. Once my mom gets up I'll tell her, and I'll probably go to sleep again until it's time to get my hair done. Then I'll get my hair done at like twelve. I'm not sure how long that takes, maybe an hour. THEN she'll want to go get food. And I'll tell her that I ate a bunch of candy, a banana, and popcorn while she was asleep and that my stomach hurts. I'll also remind her that we have food at home and such. Maybe I'll try and convince her that we should go to my aunt's house because I want to weigh myself NOW. But I'll make up some bullshit excuse about how I miss them, blah blah. I just want to get to 140 sooo bad. It shouldn't take too long, maybe by Wednesday if I don't fuck up. I just really want to reach 137 by the end of the month. That isn't too hard, is it? I have like 16 days to lose, what, 8 pounds? It's doable. I really want to write some more fanfiction but I'm SO tired right now I can barely write this. I'm not feeling so wonderfully creative. Oh, I know what I'll do today. After I get my hair done I'll tell my mom that I have to do all my homework. And I really do. It takes me like five or so hours. So that should take up most of the day, and then I'll sleep. And then much later, around seven thirty or so, I'll have that frozen meal. So everybody wins. I just really want to be able to wear those little cute dresses. I'm probably just going to spend the next few hours on some clothes website and dreaming that I can actually wear the clothes without looking like a hot mess. My cousin' wedding is on the 23rd of November, and I'd like to be 125 by then. PLEASE. 125. Not too much to ask for, I think.